Dear Me,
I know that you've been trying to hold yourself from not breaking into pieces.I could see your drastic changes physically, mentally, emotionally and socially.The root of all these things points directly to your current job. Many times you've tried to inform your boss about your "graceful exit" but up to this day, you never had any success doing it. Either your so dedicated to your work or your just too numb to take the first step.
In two years time, you have completely changed from the man i used to know to a completely different person. You've done terrible things, stupid decisions, hurting your friends and even the woman you truly love.
You've constantly playing tug-of-war between your spiritual activities (which i know that you really love to do) and the time you spent with your work. But the sad thing is often times the latter wins out. Your healthy body has been shrinking fast, your eyes swollen from lack of sleep and you even snore while riding at the public ten-seater "airconditioned-fx". I know that you love sleeping but lately everybody agrees that you badly need to rest.
I guess what you need is not just a 4 hour sleep after battling with consecutive overnight of work.In my opinion, what you really need is to rest for a much longer time. A vacation perhaps or a change of work environment.
I promise you however we can that we'll take on various side trips.I'll take you to a nice beach resort with delicious seafood cuisine. or a mountain hiking on a remote rain forest. Bathing at the nature's waterfalls. food tripping on native, Asian & European dishes. Watch recent movies in Imax every other week.Shopping spree to replace with your rugged (the rag like stuff you wear daily) jeans, shirt & shoes. We will visit the body spa to massage your aching muscles, take you to the dentist to thoroughly brush your teeth. We will go to the museum, historical structures and other eye catching landmarks. We will do all the sports you like; basketball, swimming, table tennis, cycling & chess tournament. We will enroll in music lessons for violin and keyboard then we will compose our own music and hymn of praise. We're going to reserve tickets for concerts, & theaters and collect the sold-out albums of our favorite bands.
And if the odds are in our favor, We will take the package tour to fly-out to Boracay, Bohol, Davao & Palawan. or on an open sea expedition at Puerto Galera, Bataan, Mindoro & Camsur or simply long road trips to Baguio, Baler, Mt. Provinces, Abra & Pagudpud. And if that were not enough, were going abroad, from here to Greece, to Italy, to Venice, France, Egypt, New York, Chicago, Canada, New Zealand and to an exclusive tour around the world. After all these things your room will be filled with photos of happy memories; smiling, screaming,eating, sleeping laughing & praying.
But even if these things doesnt come into reality, I hope one day you'll find yourself in peace and contentment to the job best suited for you. Away from the maddening crowd, pressure and high expectation. You won't be hearing a single curse and belittling words of mockery that comes from all the people who looks down on you.
Just for now, you need to wait a bit more. Find patience & understanding, compressed your emotion & throw away those thrash-talking attitude.
All you need to do is to prepare yourself for the coming event. Heads up for a new beginning that awaits for you, for me, for Majer and all the people whom you cared a lot. It will all start when you decide with all your might to take a single step out of your current zone.
patiently waiting,
the real you.
